Mixed feelings

The day started and continued as one of my usual days. Later in the evening, an old friend comes online and we started chatting. My friend had something to tell me. First I didn't believe it and laughed about it. As the conversation continued, I realized that this is the real truth that I was hearing. I was in shock. I tried to pretend that it didnt affect me in anyway, but it did... very deeply. I didn't know what to make of it. I was happy for a reason and sad for another. I was also hurt at the same time because I had not been told the truth all this time. I also felt a sense of peace and relief. It felt like I was finally set free... to fly... to where ever I wish, set free by my heart and mind.

I made a decision at that instant. I decided to do something that I should have done a very long time ago. This time I was absolutely sure that I was doing the right thing and for the right reasons. So once I finished the conversation with my friend, I did it... with no second thoughts. It hurt inside to know that I'm closing down a part of my life or atleast what was a part of me. Finally I was able to let go... I mean really let go. From inside I heard a voice telling me... that I can move on now without any regret, hurt or guilt.

Its funny when u look back at life and see how and where its taken its turns. I have always believed that whatever happens, happens for good and I still do. Also I now know that as humans, we have our plan and God has his. Its all fate. . .